She...
He was a confused soul, with endless lingering doubts about himself, about his feelings and about what he wants.
Then again, maybe that wasn't the case.
He just wanted to make sure what he will be doing, the path that he will be taking is the right one.
Like many others, he is so afraid of getting hurt and hurting others even more.
He has been hurt one too many times and doesn't wish to go through the same path ever again.
His mind is probably already made up long ago.
What has been holding him back is the lack of assurance and the numerous second thoughts and what-ifs that has been floating around his head.
He had a deep first impression of her.
But it wasn't the kind that turned his heart into a frenzied gallop. Nor was it the type that made him breathless.
But it definitely intrigued him.
Knowing her better made him a little more drawn to her by the day.
He definitely enjoys every minute with her. Time spent with her always gives him that feeling of warmth, that feeling of connectivity that he has never felt for such a long time.
Even though he was cool about the whole thing, deep down inside, he feels for her.
When she is down and frustrated, he feels sad inside.
When she is over the moon, he feels a sense of exhilaration.
When she won, despite countless doubts about her ability, he felt proud for her and on top of the world.
He has probably never felt like that for someone in a long while.
A long chat with a buddy and numerous confrontations with his inner self made him realise what he had wanted all along, coupled with that long-awaited boost of assurance that he had so much needed.
He is aware of the fact that deep down, she too, is afraid.
Of being hurt.
Of hurting him.
He was afraid and confused in the past.
But not anymore.
He knows she is someone he will be happy with. And he is willing to do all he can to make sure she feels the same way too.
He is confident that he can achieve that and that he will never let her down.
He hopes that he can be her listening ear, her shoulder to lean and cry on and most importantly her pillar of strength.
He is sincerely hoping to obtain her vote of confidence.
Then again, maybe that wasn't the case.
He just wanted to make sure what he will be doing, the path that he will be taking is the right one.
Like many others, he is so afraid of getting hurt and hurting others even more.
He has been hurt one too many times and doesn't wish to go through the same path ever again.
His mind is probably already made up long ago.
What has been holding him back is the lack of assurance and the numerous second thoughts and what-ifs that has been floating around his head.
He had a deep first impression of her.
But it wasn't the kind that turned his heart into a frenzied gallop. Nor was it the type that made him breathless.
But it definitely intrigued him.
Knowing her better made him a little more drawn to her by the day.
He definitely enjoys every minute with her. Time spent with her always gives him that feeling of warmth, that feeling of connectivity that he has never felt for such a long time.
Even though he was cool about the whole thing, deep down inside, he feels for her.
When she is down and frustrated, he feels sad inside.
When she is over the moon, he feels a sense of exhilaration.
When she won, despite countless doubts about her ability, he felt proud for her and on top of the world.
He has probably never felt like that for someone in a long while.
A long chat with a buddy and numerous confrontations with his inner self made him realise what he had wanted all along, coupled with that long-awaited boost of assurance that he had so much needed.
He is aware of the fact that deep down, she too, is afraid.
Of being hurt.
Of hurting him.
He was afraid and confused in the past.
But not anymore.
He knows she is someone he will be happy with. And he is willing to do all he can to make sure she feels the same way too.
He is confident that he can achieve that and that he will never let her down.
He hopes that he can be her listening ear, her shoulder to lean and cry on and most importantly her pillar of strength.
He is sincerely hoping to obtain her vote of confidence.
posted by morningcalm @ 1:17 PM
1 Comments:
At 12:59 PM,
:: teQuila sunrise :: said…
"And he is willing to do all he can to make sure she feels the same way too."
How sweet! My intuition tells me she is wondering if delivering roast duck to AFS counts under the "do all he can" part...;p
Hey all the best to u, Angel! (^.^;)
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